Qianyi

:(

2009-12-28T08:07:00.000-08:00

i realised that i still love him.
fucking shit, i tried so hard to get him out of my lil jelly, but it refused to move.

Pictures!!!

2009-11-05T00:46:00.001-08:00

Okay. Menses is still a pain in my ass, I'm thinking to get tampons already, they're so much, way better than pads, omg.

In search of a good tampon, I saw this very nicely designed tampon box, it comes in like 18 per pack leh, and they're just so pretty. off shell, i thought it would be some chocolates inside luh. If i didnt remember wrongly, it's Moxie. ((: worth a try.

I uploaded the photos taken on Nuffnang Awards Presentation Night at Pan Pacific Hotel ballroom. ((:

My partner, as always, Don!

Anyway, just let this picture do the talking yeah.

I'm too lazy to elaborate.

I love this ((:

We took this on the bus back, Night Rider ROCKS!

I'm caught on their cameras again. ((:

Boss Ming, Founder of Nuffnang.

As usual, us.

See my eyes? They're naturally BROWN!

Eleanor and I !!

All Eleanor is cool!

Hehes, look so sweet right?

Meldric and I ((;

Yingzi and I, thanks babe for lending me her dress! ((:

A series of camwhore.

Fauzil Russel. ((:

Weijie !!!

I love this!!

Hong Peng. ((:
Joyce and I ((:

MENSES!

2009-11-01T21:19:00.000-08:00

OMG, i hate menses lar! i want to remove it. within like 2 weeks since the last time i have menses, now i bloody hell have it again! what's wrong with that bloody womb of mine?

Its freaking uncomfortable. wearing that pad is like wearing diaper you know?
and guys, you would never understand how uncomfortable it is to wear a pad underneath,
IT'S HELL OKAY!!

I'm damn irritated with my womb and the whole structure of it.
why in the world must females go through this, even bitches? wthell is this lar,
I'm already like 16, and i have to go thru the feeling of wearing a diaper when i m like an infant or what. this is freaking unfair. ARGH!!!!

okay, pardon me for my continuation of complanation. whatever.

Vaffanculo

2009-10-27T06:19:00.000-07:00

Wtf, scold me Chaocheebye is it?

you've bloody hell no rights to do that okay, Benjamin Chia!

Chao chee bye very nice to scold huh? Chao your mother chee bye lar.

you also come out from that bloody and Chao hole.

Uncivilised people.

Mugggg hardddd

2009-10-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

Menses have been a everyday torture to me for the past 3 wks.

wtf lar, come for three weeks. its damn uncomfortable. I HAVE A STRONG DESIRE TO REMOVE MY WOMB, SERIOUSLY!

exams' gonna be over on tuesday!!!

i make sure ill go for facial, damn chui.

Updates!

2009-09-23T08:51:00.000-07:00

Its been damn long since i camwhore. ((:

pardon me yeah.

Extreme tweet-angle. GOSH!
Jonathan Tham, at supperclub. ((:

he actually allowed me to draw eyeliner on his eyes when i only know him for less than an hour, damn cool! WOOHOO!!
Stephen and Jonathan.
That hand belongs to some guy that i met at the club, dont know his name.

Before supperclub, i was at taka with these people! cools!

I hate the dracula.

this is me in the flyer.
How can they still smile when i m on the verge of crying?

Huiling and samuel's wedding. ((:
MY CELL!
see? esther tang is damn pretty! i love this photo!

Bitches..

Went to bugis with my bitch and my bitch to buy her itouch. ((:

Classic. ((:

Don was trying to be mel. hahas

Saw her eyeliner? Its drawn by me!

Random photos.

Okay, i really have tons of photos to update can!

some recent updates,

Went clubbing with Yingzi, stephen, dusty and yz's friend the other day at supperclub.

Love the white creamy beds there, eh, almost perfect for anyone to make out there.

Stephen and i were damn hiong, we literally danced from 11 till 5?

hahas. And, i wasnt drunk, they said i was drunk. I WAS JUST SLEEP DEPRIVED!

gotta know Jonathan Tham, not the one from 32 okay. Lols. Stephen, jammed again soon yeah! (after my exams) Didnt really take alot of photos, was dancing the whole effing night.

the next day went tanning with skx, then met hp and jianhao. so nice of them to send me home and had dinner at chong pang nasi lemak there. just right opp my house. Jonathan tham came my house and next day we went to meet skx and stephen to go to sentosa.

sentosa was damn fun. DON AND I MAKE OUT AT THE BEACH! OMG! i'll post the video soon!

and, I EFFING LOVE SEEKAIXIANG'S ERECTED SAND DICK! yingzi made it!

omg, there were damn lots of banglas, no offence.

oh, charlene lost her chanel wallet there ridiculously. i lost 10bucks. :(

fuckup.

Phobia 2 is damn scary, seriously.

I screamed throughout the whole movie okay. the poor skx got bitten by me. opps. real sorry yeah. we bought a triumph g-string for cheryl. ((: hope she likes it!

went home early. ((:

mom bought me a new piano today, probably comes next week. ((: i m so happy!!!

some time ago, i went to a paranormal trip with mel and weijie! so sad, only the 3of us.

i saw something at a moment, at OCH. hahas. Weijie got freaked out at the village of dead by the API's very own ghost, wthell. LOLS.

I'll just post all the photos here. ((:

and! i took singapore flyer with my eyes closed, god.

esther tang was damn pretty on her sis, Huiling's wedding lar. i love her dress!

Crashing

2009-08-31T20:08:00.000-07:00

Oh god, I'm seriously crashing.

I don't know what's going on up there in that jelly brain of mine.

Should I confess to him?

My world is spinning mad.

Nobody is telling what exactly I should do.

Am I a bad influence? Tell me alright,

There's so many problems with me.

I loveee this!哦

2009-08-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

Alvin lum might just kill me. So no jealousy please. ((:

The proposal movie event! this is the only nice photo that i have. ((:

July babies birthday celebration, long overdued too ((:

Ps: thats ME! ((: dont flatter, lols.

Magic show At the ARENA! ((: real overdued ((:

23'08Class gathering at Sentosa:

I m starting to miss Rohit badly. I hope you see this mann.

Kejia took this! Love it mann!

Vince was totally tortured by me that day. Sad :(

Okay, finally blogger is back to old self. I'll try to upload as many photos as i can alright!

Im sorry, its really all in random order. it took be a great deal to upload all these photos. ((:

Sorry

2009-08-21T21:58:00.000-07:00

okay, sorry guys. Blogger has been screwing up alot of problems to me.
so i cant post all the photos i have. really sorry about it.

Just a lil update,
got h1n1 recently.
got myself tanned really inside out. (jurong swimming complex is damn clean!)

the rest will update another time. ((:

Noose

2009-06-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

I slapped Alvin Lum yesterday. Historic moment for the both of us.

2009-06-26T06:26:00.000-07:00

okay, everybody! see this woman there ^^^

YOU'RE WANTED!

go missing so long! everyday so busy for what? your bitch here is missing you like siao okay!!!

better come back to me. hahas!

Don't scold me okay. I bet you will like, FUCK BITCH! LOLS!

Didn't expect me to have this photo right? Don captured it last year, remember? hahas!

2009-06-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

Chloe, Don and I. ((:

In Pajamas!

MY FACE IS GONE FOR GOOD.

Credits to Weijie, Chelry, Chloe, Nuffnang for these photos. ((:

Shopping!

2009-06-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

Went shopping with my bitch on Thursday, and left my boy waiting for me so long.

Bought like really only a few stuffs, still haven gotten my shoulder bag, shoes and the other bags.

Kay, I know i've lots of bags already, but hey, I'm a girl, woman, lady(which you might think not), i bloody hell loves bags!

Anw, caught a few movies recently, rather, consecutively in 3days. I watched Drag me to hell with Pauline and peeps, Ghosts of girlfriends past also the same with the addition of Weijie, and I love you, man with my bitch. Drag was totally a disaster, gave me nightmare. ARGH! Dreaded.

The other two, typical story luh, quite touching and funny! ((:

Had pjyamas party on Friday night. I dressed until damn sluttish lar. And Ray, your picture is still with me! Lols. Can't even stand myself that night. Pure vodka was just pure indulgence.

I know i look constipated.

Thats the rapper for the arena. Hot right?

okay, I know i look sluttish, like some prostitute. Just shut up. But there's no denial that the rapper was simply just too hot okay.

Like finally, there's some updates to my blog. I took kinda lots of photos but is all with the others, will get it from them and upload again! ((:

Oh, thanks to Chloe for helping me to get into The Arena. ((:

Hey, look on the bright side. ((:

Just now, went to National Youth Winds, in short, NYW's concert. Was a blast. Ang Weixiang, not forgetting Reiko, Justin and Shareler, did us proud! Enjoyed myself, the supper was hilarious i swear. Devin and Akil are porn gay-partners. ((: Thank god that we managed to catch the really last train back to Yishun. ((: if not, it would be night rider again. Eww.

Some photos taken,

Dewi and I are hooking on guys now. hahas, WATCH OUT!

My dearest, DEMI!

Caught Chenning posing!

(ps: I wasn't wearing shades!)

Esther and I ((:

2009-06-04T19:58:00.000-07:00

I have a sudden urge to type in chinese. Maybe he can understand better in chinese. ((:

我喜欢上一个没有主见，超大男人主义，一点也不懂得体贴的男人。

以前的他总是会让我觉得他很在意我，每天早上会发简讯个我，有空时会打电话个我。把我惹恼时会不断地向我道歉。那个你跑去那里了？

现在的你一封简讯也不发，感觉你已经不再在乎我。喜欢上你因该是一个错误。一开始就应该对你没有期望，不应该依赖你。即使把自己弄得偏体鳞伤，我还是依然选择了你。也许你认为自己并没有错，也许你认为我无理取闹，但是你到底有没有设身处地地为我想想? 变的人是你，不是我。如果我对你来说是可有可无的，你至少可以让我知道，因为这种煎熬很难受。你每一次让我感到失望的时候，我都很想放弃你，但你却不珍惜我给的机会，一次又一次的摧毁它。我真得很想知道你是这么想的。

要知道现在变的人不是我。你变得让我再也不认识你。不愿意和我分享你的事，抽烟，把我当成可有可无。也许你不知道，你抽烟的时候让我感到很恶心，很厌恶。永远你只恨你的好朋友，好兄弟分担你的不开心，你就不能对我说吗？你每一次给我的理由都在敷衍我，肯本都没有在回答我的问题。把我当成可有可无是报复吗？

我越来越不了解你，感觉好遥远。也许我应该学会不要依赖。

Hannah Montana the Movie ((:

2009-06-04T19:54:00.000-07:00

DON GAO WEILIANG WAS LATE FOR 33MINUTES, BECAUSE HE WENT TO SLACK AT J8 AND HAVE NO IDEA HOW ANGRY I WEREEEE!

well, was pissed but crappy stuffs came along and I'm fine.

(see the difference between a BF and BF now, Alvin Lum)

Anyway, the movie was nice. Nothing much. Was real dumb, I started crying in the middle the show. hmmm.. hahas!

Go to hell!

2009-06-01T04:04:00.000-07:00

I totally detest the sight of ALVIN LUM!

I don't care whether you like it or not, its my blog, i like to post your name here so what?

Please wake up from your idea lar! Forever only thought of yourself, whatever you do is the most important one. You think you go to school very big shot is it? I go to band is just as equivalent to nothing right? Spare a thought for people.

So what if my character sucks, i think you're worst. Because you can never blend with the crowd, you will just forever be in that childish mind of yours, can do things usually without using your airhead. Its pretty obvious why some people can do better you. Besides, you seriously need a plastic surgery, evident from why you failed to enter retail in ITE. Don't think you always call the shots at home, people will do as you please. I'm so sorry to tell you that I'm not submissive like those that succumbs to you!

Your life is totally screwed lar. Think about it, what thing have you ever did at your own effort, without the help of anybody, and you ace it? Well, most probably NOTHING. The fact that you have to consult (put in a better way just for junks) people for almost everything you do. Come on, for your almost coming to 18 years of your life, can you be more independent or not? Everything you do, can you have a mind of your own? Stop being so indecisive. Having to be with you for eight months was a torture and its tiring! Because I've to tolerate with a guy with an airhead, no decision over his life at all. Maybe its time for a baby to wake up. See? Now you know why there is nothing to praise about you, but condemning you.

Feel really good scolding you. But at the same time, a waste of my time. ((:

So just jolly well do something to your life, and i promised with the stake of my devotion for cows, i WILL NOT sms, or even call you. ((:

Next, its time for me to blog about the happy things. ((:

See that guy in the photo! Its my most wonderful bitch, DON CANN!!

okay, HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! (you know why i put green!)

omg, we've known each other for a year already, we did so many things together, had so much laughter, just don't understand why certain people loves to bad-mouth him.

Hmm, anyway, its really glad to know you okay, Don Gao.

I can't wait for tmr!

AH! But its kfc luh. Newyork lar! Eh, lets' make SKX jealous! hahas!

I love swimming, love the warmth from the rotund Sun. ((:

I hate ALVIN LUM! (seriously hate you now!) ((:

I love all my bitches. ((:

Destroyed :(

2009-05-31T07:06:00.001-07:00

Its over again. Why must you, time after time, once after once, ruin or rather destroy our relationship? Was it my fault or your fault? Is my trust for that easily swayed? Why must you blow it off? Why can't you come clean with me? Why don't you share your problems with me? Why must do things that you know i don't like infront of me, you repeated your mistake?Are you that easily swayed?

I think i really fall deeply for you. I plunged my whole fucking head into this relationship, what's wrong with me?

Until the last minute you also don't want to come clean with me, is that call loyalty to your friends or dishonesty to me? The two that I cherish most are the ones who hurt me most.

Am i such a bad friend?

I ruined my friendships, ruined my relationship with that Alvin lum, i caused the death of my brother. What else am I capable of?

I asked God today, why I landed in this state, He didn't replied.

I don't know what to do already.

Is my existence so irritable, that will pissed you off?

God, please change me. Change everything inside me.

I love him, but yet I don't know how to manage that. I tried to trust you. I failed. So what if I condemned you infront of your friends? Is there anything that I can praise about you? I tried to feel secured, but i can't. Is that all you can give or am i too demanding? Maybe the two of us are just to immature when it comes to this. You need to be more civilized, seriously. I'm not your dog okay, I don't have to do things as you please.

You know what? Ever since I met you, my life changed so much. Not to the extent that everything is bad, sometimes i do enjoy being together with you. As time passed, I started to realized that it was not infatuation. Or maybe I'm too dependent on you that it had already become a habit.

I really hope that the guy that i met in the first place was not you. So that i won't have to suffer this much and landed myself like this. till the extent that my best friend don't even wish to tell me how she felt about me. In the end, everything screwed up.

Will you change?

Esther Tang Hui En

2009-05-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

Saw this beautiful collage?

That woman there is forever, ever my best friend, ESTHER TANG HUI EN! Nothing will change that. Don't feel random okay.

I know it seems that we are like drifting apart, but never will I forget to think about you!

Been thinking and thinking of how can I change my piano lesson. Ever since we are in the same class in P4, I guess its the start of our friendship isn't it? Though there were times when we really mad at each other, so many misunderstandings, but hey! do hold on to faith and believe that its JUST a challenge to us, to maintain out friendship! After graduating from Jiemin, i know that you've been trying very hard to keep our friendship still as before. So, we shared the same piano teacher(for that time), entered your cell, get to know Ariel, Rose and Pearl, not forgetting Wanru. I really appreciated you as my friend. And, i really love all the performances that you've been through with your band peeps.

Hey, if you see this, don't be too touched okay.

and, i love the video you made for me last year!!!

, i love you dearly!

the cutest girl and most unpredictable that i ever met!

Wanru and Lingde's Wedding II

2009-05-21T06:25:00.000-07:00

Do we look alike? ^^^^

All of us.

(from left to right) Me, Ariel, Johanna, Esther, Pearlyn, Roseline and Tammy

There is still a lot of photos to come! But its with the photographer, weixiong. ((:

Lunchtime perf was fun.

Screwed up my piece here and there as usual. ((:

I WANT TO BE LESBIANS!

anyone?

Movies!

2009-05-20T06:34:00.000-07:00

I caught Angels and Demons with FERNANDO!

hahas, Hey, I didn't call your name out loud eh!

And, I pee faster than a GUY! OMG!

A and D was nice, I like the plot really well. ((:

Caught The Uninvited the next day with Junxing and Wenting. ((:

Bad plot and lame story. I mean it.

the following day! i watched star trek again!

hahas!

Went East coast just now with Junxing and Wenting. ((:

Cycling was so fun!

Wenting took the photo while i was doing school service. ((:

Lingde and Wanru's Wedding I

2009-05-19T01:35:00.001-07:00

upload the rest next time. ((:

It's time,

2009-05-14T08:33:00.001-07:00

I'm trying so hard to let go.

I'm really losing my mind. I don't know what I want now. Things seems to be screwed. I really don't know what's going on in me!

I'm starting to contradict myself. I'm trying so hard to get you out of my head. Yet, I miss those times we've been through. Maybe its really better this way.

We might just forget each other after some time. I cannot accept the way you are. Your imperfections are in our way. I know I'm a total perfectionist, but what am I really doing is to change you for the better. Its beneficial in both ways. You said that you've changed, change for the better, but what are you really changing? Is it for me or for yourself?

I wanted to hug you so badly just now. But what repels me from doing so is that smell. I tried to get used to it, and I thought I've did it, I was wrong. The smell lingers on your body and that repels me.

What's the point of clinging on to it, whereby, things will end up the way it is in the end.

Do I really love you? I really don't know. Maybe I'm not even fit to say those words. To me, you didn't change at all. You're still as chauvinistic as before, just the way you are.

The problems lies in me. I cannot accept you to smoke, never I meant. Is eight months too short for you to curb your problems? Or are you taking me for granted?

I tried my best to give in to you, to accept who you are, and I can't. I cannot means cannot. Not enough means not enough.

Being together is a wrong choice for us. I gave up on myself already. I see the fact that nobody will ever meet my expectations.

I've never regretted in making this choice. I was too naive back then. So silly that I actually thought that I could change you, I was wrong again.

Don't try to change anymore, be yourself. There is no point changing anymore, if its changing for the sake of me. You will be happier to be back to your old self.

As for me, I will be fine. Yes, I may be trying to be tough, because I've got hurt enough. I don't want myself to land in this state anymore. To me, what's the most important now is to practice hard on my piano.

Are we still friends?

Spin the Bottle xD

2009-05-11T06:56:00.000-07:00

my dirty lil bitch! ((:

Went T2 to study with Wenting, my dearest bitch.

Very fruitful! Planned our whole-life of, things to do before we die, or rather my ambitions.

Lols. Was laughing off my ass.

Damn sotong today, didn't know I was on 852, i thought i was on 853. Ended up at the usual school stop. And! Had to cross the fucking overhead bridge, the last thing I would ever want to do.

Totally drench before I got to step into Hub. Screwed my whole hair lar.

Wenting was dry, very dry. Almost caught a cold. Fortunately, not. ((:

Met Don, my another bitch in my life, around evening. Went to Heeren to get our Yakpak bagpack! Damn excited the whole day before we even reach there! Like finally!

Camwhore a lil after we bought our bags!

SEE KAIXIANG! DONT BE JAELOUS!!!

Had a very enjoyable and crazy Mrt journey back to amk. Contents is to be enclosed.

(secret eh)

Went to MAC and had our dinner, sort of. Then Dad came to pick me up, and sent Wenting home. ((:

Pictures.

I hate Don Gao, he look so natural in that picture!

ARGH!

I LOVE MY BAGPACK TO THE MAX!!!

Back in action!

2009-05-10T10:45:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings,

Im back in action. Yes, back to blogger. xD

I totally suck at livejournal. (:

Anyway, watched star trek and x-men recently.

Star trek was nice, exciting I should say. A little typical, in terms of plot.

Make-ups and effects are really thumbs-up! Watched it with Kx, he've got the sneak preview

ticket from naffnang.

X-men, hmmm, very nice make-ups, action-packed. Wolverine is damn hot. Wenting and I

were freezing inside the theatre.

Having mid-year now, think i will do badly for English, Hmt, and flunk badly for Physics.

Bless me ((:

Photos will come in later. Too lazy to upload eh, as usual.

Hmmm, so many things happened recently. People around are constantly changing. I'm still in the same old fucking position. Maybe its time for me to grow up.

I will stop procrastinating, forget and clean all the memories. Yes, that should be the way.

Can't wait for this weekend's movie! Gonna watch Angels and Demons or maybe Night at the Museum!

Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, LEON!

Wanru and Lingde are getting married this coming Saturday! Blessed wedding!

Had piano lesson today, Mr Ku praised me again! That super sarcastic freak!

((: so over the moon.

Joseph Ho, you really suck at studying can. So no stamina, how to study lar?!

Wenting and I are really mugging for mid-year? Lols!

Okay, not the part where we went for movies in the midst of mid-year.

Been thinking to go to poly after graduation. I think I've think too far.

Well, it was Mrs Veda's a sentence of remark totally freak me out of JC.

She said, " You only need to know this (some bio terms for plants) in JC. "

and.

I'm like, omg.

hmmm, considering Singapore poly i guess. Heard that its a pretty good one. Maybe, if possible, i'll go for psychology. ((:

Will try to concentrate on my studies. ((:

Happy Mother's Day!

and!

Happy 49th Birthday, Dad!

I love you guys dearly!

Went for Mr Ku's playing class on Friday night with Jaselyn.

Almost lost, walked for hell freaking long before we found his place.

Live so ulu lar!

Almost fell asleep, was so boring!

Stayed out the whole night. ((:

I've so many things to blog lar!

Lunchtime performance is on 21st May, Thursday!

Do come and support!

Will be meeting Wenting, that nice bitch in, hmm, like another 6hours?

I bet she is sleeping like a log now already.

Dear Eleanor, I hope you're not awake now. Better go to bed and sleep like a log!

I need to hit those books now. ((:

Good night.